Its been a long since i wrote a blog i doubt anyone reads them but oh well its someting to do i went on a walk with promise on christmas day it was so amazing to see all the mountains and the scencery i started to think about a lot of things like my relationship with god and my obsession with lads but mostly about god.I had nice little chat with god i know he was listening.And i have realised that i dont need lads to feel loved because god will always be there for me. Anyway shame i carnt go on saturday(gordon and deeeee said) i think i would enjoy it but oh well maybe next time if im still in the church.I think i might stay i dont know if i want to be part of promise anymore i would lke to go to whitestone but know one likes me tthere because they think im a bad influence on bobby and so on........but there we go thats ppl for me i wish everyone would give me a second chance to prove i can be a good person anyways in a peace mwahh bye bye